Mar 6, 2012

Echoes of You

Posted by Mommy on Mar 6, 2012 at 6:07 pm

I heard the echo of your voice in Katie’s chatter this morning. And it broke my heart. How I ache for when your chatter was part of our every day. I love your sweet voice and laughter.

Category: Letters to Weeble Link: Echoes of You
Feb 26, 2012

Raining in my Heart

Posted by Daddy on Feb 26, 2012 at 11:15 am

Hee Weeb!

There is not much I feel like saying today. I am so sad that you are not with us here any more.

Some people call today the anniversary of your death (if it’s not tomorrow, that is.) It’s certainly the anniversary of your accident. It’s definitely the anniversary of the worst day in the life of our family.

Some call it your angel day, but you’re not an angel. You are a Child of God living in His presence. That means today is the anniversary of your home-going. It’s Home Day, or Heaven Day, I guess.

Whatever this day is called, I am happy for you, and sad for us. It’s a roller coaster kind of day for me, and I don’t particularly care for roller coasters.

I am often sad about all of the things I will not get to do with you here on Earth, then I realize that we will be together here on the Earth one day, and then on the New Earth. Our time together is not over: It’s only paused. If you had merely moved to Seattle, I’d be sad. Instead, you are in a place that is hard for me to understand. You may well be much closer than Seattle, yet at times you seem so much further away.

Yet Heaven is where God is, and God is here with me. He’s also in Seattle, and He’s where you are, too. We are together in a way that I cannot understand. Sometimes maybe I feel it.

I continue to think about you every day.

Today we will have a picnic to celebrate your life, both with us and in Heaven. It is being planned by Aunt Tricia and her family, and we will have to hold it indoors, because it is raining. Mommy said that the weather matches her mood. I say it’s raining in my heart, but only because you like Buddy Holly so much. It would have been nice to have it under the monkey tree in the front yard.

It has dawned on me that Heaven has many more residents who were children when they died than those who were adults. So many are miscarried, are stillborn, starve, die of disease, are aborted, etc. While it’s a sad fact of life that children die, it is comforting to me to realize that so many die before they can reject God. I am convinced that you are in good human company there.

I’ll be there with you soon (relative to the grand expanse of eternity,) as will Mommy and your six siblings. I’m sure you are not pining away waiting for us, but parts of us are pining away waiting to be there. It’s a good thing to long for being with God, trinity to trinity. Until then, I’ll try to bring as many along as I can. I love you.

Category: Letters to Weeble Link: Raining in my Heart
Feb 25, 2012

One Year. I Miss You.

Posted by Mommy on Feb 25, 2012 at 11:29 pm

Sweet Weeble, this day last year I fixed you your last dinner. You dropped it on the floor, then sat in my chair with me and shared mine. We had pudding cups for dessert. Then I kissed you goodnight for the last time. It was the end of our last whole day with you. I’ll always love how soft you felt and how sweet you smelled and how I loved to stroke your hair. When I said I wanted you to stay my little boy forever, this isn’t what I meant. I love you more than you will ever know. I miss your smile and your goofy little laugh. ♥ ♥ ♥

Category: Letters to Weeble Link: One Year. I Miss You.
Feb 20, 2012

To Lose a Child

Posted by Mommy on Feb 20, 2012 at 11:36 pm

“To lose a child … was something that could end one’s world. One could never get back to how it was before. The stars went out. The moon disappeared. The birds became silent.” – Alexander McCall Smith

Category: Poetry Link: To Lose a Child
Feb 20, 2012


Posted by Mommy on at 11:57 am

I love you, Muffin. ♥

Category: Letters to Weeble Link: ♥
Feb 11, 2012

Camping Without You

Posted by Daddy on Feb 11, 2012 at 9:54 am

Hi Weeble!  I am camping in a place that reminds me of you, and it makes me a little sad.  It makes me happy, too.  I miss you very much!

Category: Letters to Weeble Link: Camping Without You
Jan 25, 2012


Posted by Mommy on Jan 25, 2012 at 7:18 pm

Well, Muffin, we ordered your headstone today. I love it and hate it at the same time. I mostly hate it, I guess. But it will have your picture and will at least be nicer than the temporary marker at the cemetery. We also had our first family pictures without you done yesterday. That was sad, too. But we had, “Dat my puppy” there to represent you. I miss you more than I can ever express. ♥ ♥ ♥

Category: Letters to Weeble Link: Headstone
Dec 5, 2011

Christmas in Heaven

Posted by Daddy on Dec 5, 2011 at 1:49 am

Hee Weeb!

I do not know if there is a heavenly celebration of Christmas.  There are those among my friends and fellow church members here who distance themselves from Christmas because of its pagan components.  The birth of Jesus is certainly something to celebrate, though.

It’s so cliche to say, “Every day is Christmas in Heaven,” but I do know that the joy we feel here at Christmas time is nothing compared to the joy you find yourself in these days.  It does not matter to me if there is no Christmas in Heaven, because Jesus is there. One day we’ll sing “Joy to the World” together in the correct context.

Christmas without you here will be sad for us.  We miss you every day.  I think of you constantly.  One day the family will be together again, and Christmas or not, we will celebrate Jesus in His presence together again.  I miss you and I love you.

Love, Daddy

Category: Letters to Weeble Link: Christmas in Heaven
Dec 4, 2011

Christmas Service

Posted by Mommy on Dec 4, 2011 at 9:37 pm

We went to the Christmas service at the funeral home today. It was sad, but so nice to see your name in print and hear your name called out loud. We wrote you messages and put them inside your ornament, and Daddy put your ornament on the tree. I miss you. 🙁

Category: Letters to Weeble Link: Christmas Service
Nov 26, 2011

Time in Perspective

Posted by Daddy on Nov 26, 2011 at 12:02 pm

Today Mommy remarked that Weeble has been gone from this Earth as long as he was growing in her womb.  It was a sad remark.

Aren’t we all in a womb, waiting to be born into eternity?  Where will you be going on that last day of your earthly gestation?

Category: Observations Link: Time in Perspective