Feb 26, 2013

Second Anniversary

Posted by Mommy on Feb 26, 2013 at 9:24 pm

Oh, Muffin. “What if” is a bottomless pit that goes nowhere. As Daddy says, all that matters is what IS. I loved watching your smile and hearing your voice and your laugh in your videos today. My arms and my heart ache for you. ♥

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May 20, 2012

Happy Birthday, Weeble

Posted by Mommy on May 20, 2012 at 6:08 pm

We had a little party for what should have been your fourth birthday yesterday. It was so sad, of course, without you there, but we wanted to celebrate that four years ago, we held you in our arms for the first time. Kissed you for the first time. Saw your blue eyes for the first time. And although we didn’t know it would be so short, began to enjoy our days with you here in this life.

We were so blessed to have you in our lives. The memories we have with you are not nearly enough, but they are precious. We love you very much and miss you with a mighty ache that wracks us to the core of our being. We watched some of your videos today, and laughed instead of crying. You always made me smile, and you still do, even through the grief. Happy birthday, sweet Weeble.

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Mar 6, 2012

Echoes of You

Posted by Mommy on Mar 6, 2012 at 6:07 pm

I heard the echo of your voice in Katie’s chatter this morning. And it broke my heart. How I ache for when your chatter was part of our every day. I love your sweet voice and laughter.

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Feb 25, 2012

One Year. I Miss You.

Posted by Mommy on Feb 25, 2012 at 11:29 pm

Sweet Weeble, this day last year I fixed you your last dinner. You dropped it on the floor, then sat in my chair with me and shared mine. We had pudding cups for dessert. Then I kissed you goodnight for the last time. It was the end of our last whole day with you. I’ll always love how soft you felt and how sweet you smelled and how I loved to stroke your hair. When I said I wanted you to stay my little boy forever, this isn’t what I meant. I love you more than you will ever know. I miss your smile and your goofy little laugh. ♥ ♥ ♥

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Feb 20, 2012

To Lose a Child

Posted by Mommy on Feb 20, 2012 at 11:36 pm

“To lose a child … was something that could end one’s world. One could never get back to how it was before. The stars went out. The moon disappeared. The birds became silent.” – Alexander McCall Smith

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Feb 20, 2012


Posted by Mommy on at 11:57 am

I love you, Muffin. ♥

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Jan 25, 2012


Posted by Mommy on Jan 25, 2012 at 7:18 pm

Well, Muffin, we ordered your headstone today. I love it and hate it at the same time. I mostly hate it, I guess. But it will have your picture and will at least be nicer than the temporary marker at the cemetery. We also had our first family pictures without you done yesterday. That was sad, too. But we had, “Dat my puppy” there to represent you. I miss you more than I can ever express. ♥ ♥ ♥

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Dec 4, 2011

Christmas Service

Posted by Mommy on Dec 4, 2011 at 9:37 pm

We went to the Christmas service at the funeral home today. It was sad, but so nice to see your name in print and hear your name called out loud. We wrote you messages and put them inside your ornament, and Daddy put your ornament on the tree. I miss you. 🙁

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Sep 26, 2011

I Miss You

Posted by Mommy on Sep 26, 2011 at 10:24 pm

I miss you, Muffin. Sometimes the simplest thing, like Katie sitting in your booster seat, breaks my heart. Everything feels wrong without you here. The hole where you aren’t is enormous. You are such a nice boy, and I hate having to wonder what you would have done or said today. I hate missing your hugs and kisses. I hate singing our songs by myself. Katie went to her first Sunday School class yesterday, and you weren’t there to sit with her. I hate missing you.

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Aug 25, 2011

Six Months

Posted by Mommy on Aug 25, 2011 at 7:11 pm

Weeble, it has been six months since our last full day with you. The last dinner I cooked for you. The pudding cup I let you have for dessert even though you didn’t finish your dinner. The last time I kissed you goodnight. I miss you more than I could ever try to express. ♥

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