Category Archives: Letters to Weeble

Feb 20, 2012


Posted by Mommy on Feb 20, 2012 at 11:57 am

I love you, Muffin. ♥

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Feb 11, 2012

Camping Without You

Posted by Daddy on Feb 11, 2012 at 9:54 am

Hi Weeble!  I am camping in a place that reminds me of you, and it makes me a little sad.  It makes me happy, too.  I miss you very much!

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Jan 25, 2012


Posted by Mommy on Jan 25, 2012 at 7:18 pm

Well, Muffin, we ordered your headstone today. I love it and hate it at the same time. I mostly hate it, I guess. But it will have your picture and will at least be nicer than the temporary marker at the cemetery. We also had our first family pictures without you done yesterday. That was sad, too. But we had, “Dat my puppy” there to represent you. I miss you more than I can ever express. ♥ ♥ ♥

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Dec 5, 2011

Christmas in Heaven

Posted by Daddy on Dec 5, 2011 at 1:49 am

Hee Weeb!

I do not know if there is a heavenly celebration of Christmas.  There are those among my friends and fellow church members here who distance themselves from Christmas because of its pagan components.  The birth of Jesus is certainly something to celebrate, though.

It’s so cliche to say, “Every day is Christmas in Heaven,” but I do know that the joy we feel here at Christmas time is nothing compared to the joy you find yourself in these days.  It does not matter to me if there is no Christmas in Heaven, because Jesus is there. One day we’ll sing “Joy to the World” together in the correct context.

Christmas without you here will be sad for us.  We miss you every day.  I think of you constantly.  One day the family will be together again, and Christmas or not, we will celebrate Jesus in His presence together again.  I miss you and I love you.

Love, Daddy

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Dec 4, 2011

Christmas Service

Posted by Mommy on Dec 4, 2011 at 9:37 pm

We went to the Christmas service at the funeral home today. It was sad, but so nice to see your name in print and hear your name called out loud. We wrote you messages and put them inside your ornament, and Daddy put your ornament on the tree. I miss you. 🙁

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Sep 26, 2011

I Miss You

Posted by Mommy on Sep 26, 2011 at 10:24 pm

I miss you, Muffin. Sometimes the simplest thing, like Katie sitting in your booster seat, breaks my heart. Everything feels wrong without you here. The hole where you aren’t is enormous. You are such a nice boy, and I hate having to wonder what you would have done or said today. I hate missing your hugs and kisses. I hate singing our songs by myself. Katie went to her first Sunday School class yesterday, and you weren’t there to sit with her. I hate missing you.

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Sep 9, 2011

Letter From Poppy

Posted by Poppy on Sep 9, 2011 at 6:00 pm

Hello Weeble,

I did not write to you before because I did not want to cause more sadness to your parents. I read letters from your Mommy and Daddy and Aunt Tricia a couple of times and just got sad myself.  I do miss you terribly.  There are lots of other grandchildren to love and a heart big enough for love for each of them but a very large Weeble sized and shaped chunk of this old heart went away.

I was raised for men not to cry but to “man up” to cover those emotions over but it does not work.

What really caused me to write today is that two days ago I was sitting in my rocker on the front porch, you know where you used to look out your window and call to Nanny and me.

I was alone, Nanny was inside doing something and suddenly there you were, in my face and kissing my head.

My belief tells me you cannot see us or communicate with us, you cannot be sad and seeing loved ones cry makes us sad.  But you did communicate with me if only in my day dream.

I went to your web page and read the latest letters from your Mom and Dad and felt so helpless. You know Poppy is Mr. Fix It but I cannot fix it.

Your Dad is my little boy and I love him very much and since he brought your Mom here I have come to love her like my daughter also.  So I know how broken they are and I cannot fix it.

I love you and I know how you loved me and I know we will resume right where we left off some day.

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Aug 25, 2011

Six Months

Posted by Mommy on Aug 25, 2011 at 7:11 pm

Weeble, it has been six months since our last full day with you. The last dinner I cooked for you. The pudding cup I let you have for dessert even though you didn’t finish your dinner. The last time I kissed you goodnight. I miss you more than I could ever try to express. ♥

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Aug 22, 2011


Posted by Daddy on Aug 22, 2011 at 11:00 pm

If I could die 1,000 times in the most horrific ways known, and by doing so I could bring you back to your mother and siblings, I would begin right now, and try my hardest to be done by daybreak.  It would be a great disservice to you, I know, but I’d hope you’d forgive me.

There is one on the way that you will never know on this side of the first death.  He or she will never know you in this realm either.  You can add Sprocket to the long list of in utero monikers of which we’re so fond.  Sprout, Tater, Bumby, Tippy, Weeble,  Bug, and Sprocket.  I wonder how long you’d let yours stick?  I wonder what your name is now.

I miss you and I’m sorry.  I’m sorry I wasn’t there when you were scared.  I’m sorry for your mother and siblings.  I’m sorry for your grandparents , aunts, uncles, and cousins.  I’m sorry for me.  I have never been haunted by so many memories at once before.  You seem to be just moments away at times.  I see a piece of kinder-art flap in the fan-breeze and I think it’s you getting up from your bed.  I turn the corner at the front of the house and I hear your voice.  I hate missing you.

It might be very hard for a man to lay down his life for his child’s.  I’ll wager that it’s at least 1,000 times harder to live having been denied the chance to make that decision.

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Jul 26, 2011

Five Months in Heaven

Posted by Daddy on Jul 26, 2011 at 12:18 pm

Beebleton, you are on my mind every day.

The dissatisfaction I have with my life is exacerbated by my longing to be in Heaven. I want to be free from the grief of missing you, free from debilitating physical pain, and free from work that often costs me far more than it’s worth. I want to see what you see, and meet whom you’ve met. I want you to sit on my lap at the feet of our Creator, learning and worshiping.

Maybe I’ll sit on your lap. Perhaps we’ll all be children there. All I know for sure is that it’s real, you’re there, and I will be some day too.

If my other pains were gone, I’d still be crushed by your absence until we are together again. My hope and strength are strong – they are probably the only strength I have left.

It makes no sense to tell you to be a good boy anymore, so I’ll just tell you that I’ll be one.

Your mother and siblings miss you terribly, but they, like me, will be alright in the end.

Love, Daddy

P.S. It brings me great joy to think about what you might be doing there.

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